Sunday, July 06, 2014

MIA July 6

I just realized that I have been MIA this past week in terms of my blog and focus.  I am still really emotional.....just having difficulty shaking it this time around.  (Or maybe just something needs to change in my life......sadly most of the change is out of my control...I'm just on this roller coaster ride.)   I know that this upcoming week will be a bit more emotional for a variety of different reasons.  So I'm just going to hang on for the ride and carry a box of tissues with me.

Weight wise.  I was soooo excited because on Thursday it was looking like I was going to have a 2 pound loss.  And then on 'official' weigh day....I only showed a loss of 6/10ths of a pound.  Oh well.

Friday and weekend.  Well.......I rode my bike for about 15 miles.  So that is good. 

 Eating...less than stellar.  Water consumption.....laughable.    My weight this morning.  Eiii Yiii Yiii.   I'm hoping it's water retention.  We won't even talk about it anymore.  I am planning a spot on day of eating (and a spot on week of eating this week)...and lots of water consumption.

I was watching a tv show the other day and a quote/sentiment stuck with me.  Weight loss is a huge mountain.  From the bottom it looks astronomical.   From the top the view is SWEET.   However, I'm half way up the hill of weight loss and stuck.   It's hard to see back down the hill to see where you've come from......but it's equally as difficult to see the top.  The easy route?   Slide back down that mountain and just accept the fact that I am fat.   The difficult route?   Push forward with the expectation that the view at the top will be grand, even though right now I can't see it through the 'trees'.

I've taken some time off from exercise.......(I only worked out three times this past week).   That's over  I've got to get back to being utterly serious and dedicated.  Exercise doesn't come easily....I have to force myself to do it.  But I like the results and how I feel when I'm done......I need to focus on that!!!!!


timothy said...

I'm proud of you for knowing what you have to do and staying focused even when your hearts not always in it......and that's why I know you'll make it and when you do that's gonna be so sweet. don't forget you're never alone you have plenty of people who adore you that are cheering you on (me and lori come to mind!lol) so if you need a helping hand to pull you along, a comforting word or encouraging cheer, or even a BIG ole kick in the ass all you have to do is ask.........sadly you shouldn't have to ask but sometimes I'm clueless so DO!

Kerstin said...

When I started this journey I did indeed look at it as a track up a huge mountain. And sometimes that mountain just feels like too big and too much. I am not even half way up yet. But I love what you say about the view at the top and that's what I'll keep in mind. While also trying to not look up nor down and just take in the sights around me. Be in the here now. That sometimes helps. I feel the same about exercising but the cycling helps because I genuinely enjoy it. You are doing great and I take comfort from knowing I am not the only one struggling with these things.

Kyra said...

I completely understand things being out of control and feeling bothered by that. It's just about one foot in front of the other at times like that (I'm talking to myself about it too!) Hang in there!

Suzanne said...

Weightloss is such a darn mountain. I feel you on that & you're not alone. I read your prior post about binging and I think it had to be the holiday weekend or something. I bought a box of those Magnum Belgium chocolate covered ice cream bars & that was huge mistake!! I ate all 3 bars over the course of a day. I cringed when I logged it in my food tracker!!